The blank

Most people might think that with the new car and school and stuff happening around my life things seem busy and fufilling.

I know many after reading this post will think that I'm just being lame and useless. But sleepless nights have been haunting me ever since. I have not been myself. Time spent alone is driving me nuts. Time spent with people is making it worse. I'm on the brink of losing it. And I have so much to lose. I need help. Real help. I'm losing it already.

My mind is blank most of the time. I know everyone will tell me not to ponder over it. I did not. That's why my mind is completely blank. This is not me. I am losing myself. Learn from past events and mistakes. I am trying. But it's driving me insane. And it's been more than a month. Even if Xinyi's back. I will be lost forever. I need to do something about this really soon.