Went to a intellectually disabled home this morning to do some community work.
I honestly hate being at this sort of place. No, not because I'm a selfish ass. But because I always feel strongly towards such people. Just like how I felt when I was helping out at AWWAS before I was teaching.
I don't think I can ever help these people for long. Not because I don't have patience ( there are alot of 'intellectually challenged' kids in school as well I swear ) but because I don't think i can maintain emotionally stable to be around them. Thier genuine expressions. And nature is too much for me to bear. I always end up feeling very emo. Which is not a good thing for my heart.
Which also leads me to be even more hurt when I actually find out that there are people out there who might not be genuine to you. Treating you as a clown. Nothing more than entertainment value. I should have never let my guard down. Now it's biting me.
Sorry for the homo-emo post. But I just feel crap.
FTW. I'm still me. Life sucks and then we die. End of story.
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