2011 Review

It is not often I post text in my blog these days. Heck, it's not even I post anymore here due to me getting my picture posting fix from Instagram. But I still try to make an attempt here. Just as a personal dairy of sorts, and for those that are actually still really checking it.


2011 had been a lot of changes for me. And these are the highlights.

1) Working towards my degree (which will end in 5 months time)
2) Getting and shifting into my own HDB flat.
3) Getting married to the person of my life.
4) Having my first child, my son.

Studying has never been an easy task for me, I am not a fast learner, and definitely not the scholarly type. School has been extremely tough for me. But I always try my best, and the results are more than satisfactory. The HDB flat had its own set of challenges that I had to face, from the transfer to the payment, it had taken a lot of my time and effort to make it into a home I am truly proud of. Getting married to my wife who has always been super supportive is one of the greatest achievements a man can have. And of course with my wife bearing me a beautiful son life can only get more complete and meaningful.

These 4 combined into a year is something that is one hell of a roller coaster ride. And I'm glad I actually pulled through. This is not without the help and support of family and friends.

Which in turn leads me to one of the most disappointing events this year. The lost of a good friend, and some other along with it. This incident has really opened my eyes on how f***** up people can get. And how one weak, useless, hen-pecked idiot in our group of friends can get manipulated by his girlfriend just because she does not like the way I speak, dress, act and behave.

It's also so disappointing that this group of persons which I relied so much upon for support (and which I wholeheartedly provided whatever I could in return) can actually decide that I was more of a 'liability' to the group rather than an 'asset'. And collectively decided to kick me out of this friendship. A friendship build upon years of experiences, blood, sweat and tears.

I guess I am not as much of a 'purist' as they idealistically would like to think of themselves. And I am simply too different to fit in. Thats the issue, I've never tried to fit in. I've always been the loud and obnoxious one, the different one. And sadly also too bold for their liking.

As idealistic as they might have hoped I would have become (and I know they had good intentions at the beginning) tragically it turned into a negative data collection that they used to justify deserting a friend at the time when I needed them most. That was really one of the most devastating moments I had felt in a long time.

But this incident also brought about new friends and people who were there for me no matter what. No matter how I behaved or how much our philosophy differed. These are people I know I can trust and depend on.

If you are reading this, you know who you are, if you can do this to me, any of you can do this again to any of you. And for all the negativity and naysaying that you have bestowed upon me. All I have to say is a big fat **** you.

Look at me now. Look at what I have achieved. What I strongly believed in (which sadly I thought were shared sentiments) has finally payed off. I took the brunt of this battle alone. Fought this war as you guys deserted me right as the enemy's doorstep. Although it has left me scared and hurt. I survived. And I have achieved more than all of you combined could have ever dreamed of. Because all you can do it worry about this and worry about that, trying to perfect this and perfect that. That nothing can really be achieved by the time the shit hits the fan.

If in case you read this and laugh it off and wonder why Melvin is still harping on this issue. That's because I genuinely loved you guys with all my heart. And I am as genuine a person as it can get. If you feel otherwise than shame on me for putting so much into our friendship. I won't say I'm better off without you guys because that not what I truly feel. But apparently that's what some of you do.

I am not claiming I am better than any of you, I am just me. And that's what you guys (or in particular one bitch) just can't stomach.

As I am writing this it is already the herald of a new year. And I shall live it the way I believe it should be. And work hard and provide the best I can for my family nucleus which I so painstakingly established. Things will only get better. Because we are the masters of the universe and we make things happen.

Thanks all for taking time to read this long post, which has been predominantly negative. However that's how I feel about what has happened in 2011.